Insomnia, sleeping pills, and seeing dots.
Been going on for the longest time now. Think it started for me really bad like this 4 years ago. I’m not a caffeine drinker, probably could use a bit more exercise, but I just can’t seem to sleep at all. I can never shut my brain off at night, am always thinking and just plain restless. Even when I ran myself ragged I couldn’t sleep right, would make up in the middle of the night and just lay in bed for 3 hours not being able to get back to sleep. When I had Sam here it was a bit better falling asleep but I’d still wake up and not feel rested. I’ve taken just about every damned sleeping solution out there. Chamomile tea, herbal solutions, ambien, sonata (which were horrible) melatonin, temazepan, etc. Am currently taking Estorra, it seems to be working in terms of sleep for me. But every time I do I feel sick in the morning, had a nose bleed this morning and really dry mouth. Other side affects which seem to be true of all the drugs or just from the lack of sleep, extreme waves of depression, migraine headaches, memory issues like short term memory loss/slowness. Don’t seem to dream at all either, at least I don’t remember it when I do. And I always use to, think that’s partly because I’d wake up so much during them. It’s all just bull shit really. I’m really getting sick of it, can’t take it anymore, the doctors aren’t helping, only trying different resolutions with no real solution or cause. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow evening, am thinking that I’ll pretty much just tell him that nothing is working, side affects are too bad, and that I’ll just try and force myself to sleep. Really not sure what else there is I can do. It seemed to almost start working for me a while back. I’d go to bed at 10pm sharp and no matter what would wake up at 7am, even on weekends. Managed to do that for two months (which some slight issues in the first few days) but it seemed to work pretty well. Just did whatever it took to get to sleep and stay asleep. Guess I just needed to put it down in writing to reaffirm the fact that I need to sort this out like yesterday. It’s ruining my life.
Tags: Home Life
June 18th, 2005 at 12:34 pm
I think that I can understand where you’re coming from. I’ve had difficulty sleeping for around three years, and I too have found that both alternative and manufactured remedies are either ineffective give the feeling that they are doing more harm than good!
I’ve found that lifestyle is important but spending all day at a computer is hard to balance out, even with the most enthusiastic of eating habits and exercise. My best ideas come to me just before going to sleep, but this has turned into a torturous rant which can last for hours, keeping me awake. I have only started to sleep properly now that I have realised that the rewards of a good night’s sleep are greater than playing with ideas that I’m too tired to remember when I wake up let alone put into practice.
Well, that’s my story and I hope that you can take something from it.
Best of luck.
Mark